Sunday, November 2, 2008

Baptist Round 1, Day 5

I realize it has been a while since I posted and I have gotten a few folks worried! I am still at Baptist and our status has not really changed. Since it is Blake's off weekend, he has been able to spend lots of time here with me. To say I have enjoyed having him around is an understatement! When I am at home, I feel like I see him all the time...works .5 miles from our house, 2 hour lunch, etc. It is not as easy for him to pop in when I am here!

The past few days have been fairly typical as far as contractions are concerned. I tend to have at least 2 rounds a day that require I be out on the monitor. I then spend about an hour to an hour and a half drinking TONS of water (going to the bathroom every 10 minutes or less) and take an extra terbutaline if needed. The contractions themselves, can be pretty intense. Unfortunately, when they start up, my comfort level decreases. I have to admit, this pattern has taken a toll on my emotions over the past 2 days. The number and intensity have gotten me really discouraged. As much as I try to keep a positive attitude, doubt, fear, concern and worry creep in and take over at times. Considering the past, anxiety is part of the deal. I am grateful that these "bouts" are few and far between. I guess I thought I would be able to breath easier once I hit this point. Somehow, knowing how important each day inside the womb makes me want him to stay put even more. "I have to make it at least X more weeks..."

I guess it is just me trying to make plans, figure this out. As strange as this sounds, it is just now sinking in that we are really going to have a baby. All I can think about is his well-being. I am having to remind myself that his weight, his length, his hair color and his birthday are known to my Lord. He is not surprised at the number of contractions I have each day. He will not be caught off guard if I go into labor. As I recite Psalm 121 over and over in my mind, I know I am promised my Protector will not slumber or sleep. He is a shelter right by my side. I just pray for the strength to let Him and His promises, alone, carry me through what is to come. I forget sometimes...

To lighten things up a bit, Blake and I just returned from a tour of the NICU. I asked the nurse if we would be able to see it sometime and she had us there within an hour. I have heard others rave about the new facilities but I wanted to see it for myself. Having only been open for a month, the "state of the art" facility is absolutely amazing. How reassuring it is to have a visual image of where he will be in the event the NICU is needed. We were very impressed to say the least! We got to meed Max and Kate while we were there! :) Precious...

I guess that is all for now. I will have an ultrasound in the morning and of course I am eager to see how the ole cervix is holding up. It has definitely been challenged the past few days. I promise to update when I know more. I would love your prayers in the meantime!

8 comments:

Sarah B. said...

Enjoy Baptist's hospitality! It was such a breath of fresh air for us and our four day stay. Sounds like you'll get to enjoy it for a bit longer.
Thinking of you and praying always :)

The Gilliams

Kristen Brown said...

You sound encouraged and upbeat over the course of the past few days. You truly have the heart of a Mommy - willing to endure anything for your precious child. You and sweet Baby Boy were prayed for this morning at church, my heart jumped at the mention of your name at first, wondering if something had gone wrong, begging God that his life was spared. And then it was a wave of peace as we asked that God continue to hold you both close until they day of Baby Boy's arrival that only He knows right now. What a joyous day that will be!!! We will all be celebrating with you. You are still being bathed in prayers, I hope you can feel the Spirit's strength, even when yours is weary. You are amazing, you will make it, you are a wonderful mother! Lovingly, Kristen

Anonymous said...

Of course the prayers will continue without ceasing! My Beth Moore class, which I hate to admit I have missed several, have you posted on their prayer list as well! So many sending up blessings of encouragement! We all anxiously await your previous one's arrival but will continue to be hoping for more time until we greet him! Jill

jaime s said...

It was so nice to meet you Friday evening! Thanks for letting us crash your Halloween activities!!

We have all been praying for you and Blake and Baby Boy Malone every day!

Our prayers continue!!

Rachel said...

Keep up the good work, mamma!

Gary and Judi said...

prayers are there...constantly...
Hold on, little one.

The Spann's said...

Danielle - I'm so excited every time you update the blog, I check it all the time and I'm praying for you and baby Malone. Hang in there, you are doing great and the Lord will continue to sustain you and be with you every step!

Ashley

Carla said...

Thanks for the updates! :) I am AMAZED by your strength; you have such a strong character and are an inspiration. Praying for that little baby each day.