I realize it has been a while since I posted and I have gotten a few folks worried! I am still at Baptist and our status has not really changed. Since it is Blake's off weekend, he has been able to spend lots of time here with me. To say I have enjoyed having him around is an understatement! When I am at home, I feel like I see him all the time...works .5 miles from our house, 2 hour lunch, etc. It is not as easy for him to pop in when I am here!
The past few days have been fairly typical as far as contractions are concerned. I tend to have at least 2 rounds a day that require I be out on the monitor. I then spend about an hour to an hour and a half drinking TONS of water (going to the bathroom every 10 minutes or less) and take an extra terbutaline if needed. The contractions themselves, can be pretty intense. Unfortunately, when they start up, my comfort level decreases. I have to admit, this pattern has taken a toll on my emotions over the past 2 days. The number and intensity have gotten me really discouraged. As much as I try to keep a positive attitude, doubt, fear, concern and worry creep in and take over at times. Considering the past, anxiety is part of the deal. I am grateful that these "bouts" are few and far between. I guess I thought I would be able to breath easier once I hit this point. Somehow, knowing how important each day inside the womb makes me want him to stay put even more. "I have to make it at least X more weeks..."
I guess it is just me trying to make plans, figure this out. As strange as this sounds, it is just now sinking in that we are really going to have a baby. All I can think about is his well-being. I am having to remind myself that his weight, his length, his hair color and his birthday are known to my Lord. He is not surprised at the number of contractions I have each day. He will not be caught off guard if I go into labor. As I recite Psalm 121 over and over in my mind, I know I am promised my Protector will not slumber or sleep. He is a shelter right by my side. I just pray for the strength to let Him and His promises, alone, carry me through what is to come. I forget sometimes...
To lighten things up a bit, Blake and I just returned from a tour of the NICU. I asked the nurse if we would be able to see it sometime and she had us there within an hour. I have heard others rave about the new facilities but I wanted to see it for myself. Having only been open for a month, the "state of the art" facility is absolutely amazing. How reassuring it is to have a visual image of where he will be in the event the NICU is needed. We were very impressed to say the least! We got to meed Max and Kate while we were there! :) Precious...
I guess that is all for now. I will have an ultrasound in the morning and of course I am eager to see how the ole cervix is holding up. It has definitely been challenged the past few days. I promise to update when I know more. I would love your prayers in the meantime!
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