Danielle and I want to pass on the news that our baby girl, Caroline Grace Malone, tried her best today, but did not survive. As Justin had reported earlier, Danielle's labor picked back up with intent this morning and we were quite sure that today was the day. We felt good about our chances to have a healthy baby, but it was not to be. Danielle's labor was short and she gave birth shortly after 2 pm. The doctors never were able to get Caroline's little heart pumping despite best efforts.
Regretfully, during our loss of Finley in April 07, we did not spend a lot of time with her. I think we were scared, shocked, and altogether confused, but we learned from that experience. Today, we were so blessed to spend nearly 4 hours with Caroline. Family members were able to share in some of our time with her. I now better understand the concept of instantly falling in love with your own child, and I even feel this experience has reconciled some of the guilt we felt from not spending much time with Finley.
Please know that we so greatly appreciate all the prayers, phone calls, texts, visits, etc. Danielle and I have already spoken of how amazing our family and friends are. Eventually, we will be able to talk to many of you to better explain our thoughts and express our appreciation. For now, we request continued prayers as we know the road ahead is very difficult.
Finally, we want to say that we take comfort in knowing that we serve a sovereign God. This is hard to say and even harder to understand on a day like today, but it's true. We cannot understand why these things happen and I never plan on understanding during my time here. It is a peaceful thought, however, to see both of our baby girls sitting in God's lap, feeling none of the pain and sorrow that are so much a part of this world.
Blake and Danielle
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