I know, I know...it has been a while...again. To be honest, there has not been too much new information to report. Let me see...I have come out of our bedroom four times since I have been home. I have been playing Tiger-Heli on the original Nintendo and have a sore spot on my left thumb from the arrow buttons. I finished my 14th book and am now on number 15, Confessions of a Shopaholic. My Boppy Total Body Pillow from Target is starting to flatten a little but I still love it and sleep with it every night. I have been working on this for several hours now and just learned that baby boy's dresser will be arriving shortly. It will pass right through the living room, where I am lying on the couch. I will refuse to look at it. I have seen a picture text of it, which was on the verge of too much info!! If it comes from PD's in Franklin, there is no need to approve it in my mind. "It's from PD's" is enough for me!! Anyway, the first piece of furniture will be in the baby's room by 6:30 pm!!
Like usual, I spent good chunks of the day on Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday having contractions. I called Dr. B on Tuesday and he changed my meds a bit. I thought about paging him at least 10 times yesterday (his off day) but didn't. Basically, I have been a nut case, trying to determine if what I am feeling is different or not. Todays appointment confirmed it for me. Things still look good. Another negative fetal fibronectin test. The news couldn't be much better for me! Physically, the ultrasound looked better than Monday, 15mm-17mm. Amazing!!! It is looking like we should confidently reach 31 weeks. That is HUGE!!!
The mental...I think an admission to an adult psych floor is warranted. Plain and simple, I am nuts. I am clueless as to what my body is doing at this point. I am pretty sure that most females would have been to the hospital 100 times with these contractions. But not me. This is NORMAL!!!! Rounds of contractions 3-5 minutes apart for an hour or more at a time, multiple times a week is NORMAL. That is what all the books say, right??? I might as well throw away What to Expect When You Are Expecting. Clearly they were not expecting me as a reader!
In my defense, I don't know how anyone could be anything other but crazy with the number of contractions I have on a daily/weekly basis. I guess I should be grateful that they are just now starting to wear me down mentally. Afterall, I have been relatively sane for a good part of last 12 weeks on bedrest! That does not even include the 17 weeks before. Keeping my composure at least half of the time isn't so bad, right?
Oh dear, nothing irks me more than a complaining, pregnant girl. (Is it weird that I can't refer to myself as a "woman"? Denial maybe?) Having walked through the past 2 years, it seems so selfish for anyone to gripe over such a wonderful gift. If I am honest, that is why I have been hesitant to post. The last thing I want to sound like is that person. I am SO thankful to be here, 29 weeks and 1 day pregnant. I could not be more excited about this little guy. How blessed am I to have tons of ineffective contractions? Very!!! I would prefer that all sensory nerves to my uterus be temporarily out of order...but that is not really an option. :) I don't want to sound like I am complaining.
I selfishly come to you asking for prayer, again. For perseverance, peace, perspective, discernment and patience to get this baby here, healthy and in our arms. I thank the Lord for each day He has given us and ask that He forgive my worry, doubts and fears. As I have read time and time again, God knows when this little guy will make his appearance. He is not "sleeping on the job"...Psalm 121, Psalm 121, Psalm 121. If I keep saying it over and over in my head, maybe is will sink in. :)
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