Seriously, I have another really good excuse for my delay in posting. As soon as our internet started working, the laptop went out! I could see our desktop from the couch but did not feel comfortable sitting up long enough to try to get something out. I can thank Blake for loving me enough to go out and buy the cheapest laptop Sams had just to keep me connected with the world. (his idea-and it works great all you mac snobs!)
As for last week. Things seemed to be going well the first of the week. Nothing really to speak of. I was feeling good, contractions were minimal, cervix looked fine on ultrasound. I started to notice the contractions pick up a bit on Friday. The trend continued on Saturday, Sunday and Monday. By Tuesday, my mental state was in the pits, once again. It is hard to remain positive when you feel your uterus cramping down on you multiple times an hour. Do I go in? Are these more intense? They are closer together...uggggghhhhh. Mentally draining.
I went into my appointment expecting the worst. Fortunately, my measurements were still good despite the increase in activity. I measured 3.1 cm. Dr. B gave me a new medicine to take as needed to help stop contractions, terbutaline. Having it in my possession makes me feel much better, mentally as well as physically. I know I am going to have contractions. But when they come one after another, it wears me down. It stirs fear, anxiety, stress, worry,etc. All things I don't need right now.
So, we are at 20 weeks today. It is probably best I didn't post over the weekend because I was somewhat of a wreck inside. No need to drag everyone up and down on this roller coaster with me. I am trying to be optimistic about the next 17 weeks...that seems like an eternity! As I have stated and will continue to state, we are so grateful for your willingness to pray for our family. I need it, Blake needs it, and most importantly, this little guy needs it! Go away contractions!!!!!! You are not needed right now!!!!
Oh, and if you have tried to call my cell phone, you know that it is not working right now either! You go on bedrest and all forms of communication fall apart. Sounds like a terrible joke!! I will be ordering a new cell tomorrow so bear with me. At least the home phone works! Nothing else break...please!!! And excuse my tpying if there are tons of errors. It is hard to do while laying on your side :)
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